Tuesday, July 15, 2008


So I finally made an interesting observation today which explains why I'm so miserable all the time. I'm an ENFP surrounded by Ts.

I live in a dry, emotionless world of logic and procedure and it's slowly choking the life out of me. I'm upset all the time because I feel like no one cares, no one seems to be able to tell how I feel instinctively.

It's like the way I think and feel is different than everyone else I surround myself with, so I assume something is wrong with me.

That's why it's so hard to talk to girls now, because I feel like they can actually read how I'm feeling. I can't fool them as easily as I can fool everyone else.

That's why my mom was so upset when my grandma died. My grandma was her outlet in a house filled with Ts.

That's why I was so unhappy when I moved back home from college.

That's why breaking up with my ex was so devastating.

It's such a simple observation, and someone kept trying to tell me that over and over again and I totally didn't see it until now.

So hopefully now that I actually understand the problem I can start working on fixing it.