Thoughts on Art and Society

It seems that what makes something truly remarkable, or a great work of art, is when it
accomplishes one of the following: when something, seemingly complex, is done in a
beautifully simplistic way; A commonly accepted or known way of doing things is challenged
by a completely radical idea; or when a body of work is used to indirectly cause the same
conclusion to be drawn by anyone who sees it.

The common theme between the people who have created works of art throughout history, that
have then gone on to alter its path going forward, is the straddling of the line between
genius and insanity. Like Tesla says in the Prestige, "Society only tolerates one change at
a time." This is because one level of thought different is considered genius and is rushed
to acceptance, but extrapolating further passes the breaking point of acceptance for society
as a whole, requiring at least a generational change before society can be bent again to
accept it. Too radical an acceptance of change would allow a chaos beyond acceptable for
growth, which would put at risk the evolutionary growth achieved so far. In other words,
universally, preservation is preferred over growth since it prevents the current progress
from being jeopardized.

Another definition I've come up with for art, is that art is the right brain's science.
Diametrically opposed, the two are really the same, just so many can only seem to understand
one or the other. At a deeper level, it seems that humanity is constantly struggling to
better understand the world it inhabits, and does so incrementally through the passage of
time. This understanding is then shared through a medium, which catches the next generation
up to the level that the previous understood, so it can than carry the torch farther in the
future. This medium is classified as art or science based on how it appeals to the mind,
but in reality is still accomplishing the same task.

Extrapolating this out further, a way of looking at this is to say that the environment we
exist in, including the other humans outside of the singular one we perceive through, is
what is commonly referred to as "God". Our lives are a constant struggle to make peace with
God by finding a way of living that quenches our desire for greater understanding through a
channel that appeals to what suits our particular vessel's understanding.

Maybe the reason the human brain is so complicated is that no one brain is exactly the same
as any other. The unique connections that form constantly alter our way of perceiving the
world from everyone else's, making our understandings infinitely different. Only the
simplest concepts that can cut to the core are seen as appealing because of their universal
ability to communicate, despite the radical differences.

Question

I haven't posted in this blog in forever. I realize this. That's probably not going to change.

I've been going through a lot of stuff since my last post, and frankly, I don't really want to share it with the whole world. There have been good things, I bought a car and moved, but the bad stuff has been, well, bad.

One thing I do want some feedback on though is the following questions that I'm pondering:

Where is happiness found? Is it really living paycheck to paycheck to buy nice clothes and go out to bars and clubs to show them off? Paying out money on drinks to forget about what you do during the day and be free to do whatever you want at night? Is it more important to do what everyone else does so that you fit in, or to blaze your own trail doing what you think is right? Is there some middle ground that actually works, or once you compromise your principles have you lost everything?

Everyone else seems so happy with themselves and their lives. I'm always striving for more, pushing myself and those around me. I can't stop, it's just who I am, but people seem to reject me for it.

I don't understand why I seem to see things so differently from everyone else. Am I really that different or have I just separated myself?

I've tried to change who I am. I've tried to be like everyone else, but it just makes me miserable. Does anyone have any answers?